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One hour. I've got one hour. One hour to write this stupid essay... Which I know nothing about. Why don't I study? Why don't I ever study? Not just sometimes, everytime. This is why I'm in resource. I never study. I should, but I don't. I've got one hour to write this stupid essay... What was the topic again? Something about England? France? Africa? Oh I give up. I'll never write this stupid essay on Napoleon. Napoleon! The essay is on Napoleon! Where's he from? South America, right? Maybe? No? Okay, focus. I've got one hour to write this stupid essay on Napoleon from France. That's right, he's from France! Awesome? But... what did he do? Why am I even writing this stupid essay? I don't care about Napoleon! He killed off the dinosoars or something... I don't know! This is why I'm in resource. I never study, and I don't know anything about this. I should study. I should, but I don't. Why do I do this to myself? Who am I kidding? I'll never be able to finish this stupid essay on Napoleon from France. Never. Why do I even bother? I belong in resource. I can't finish this stupid essay in just an hour. An hour isn't long enough to finish an essay. Not long enough at all. I've got fifty minutes to write this thing? Are you kidding? Ten minutes have gone by, and still I sit here, staring at this stupid piece of paper, trying to write an essay on Napoleon. I'll never be able to write this essay. It's not physically possible. Sure, she's almost halfway down the first page, and he--hey! She's halfay down the first page? How long is her essay going to be? She's writing it? How can she remember all of the details? How can she possibly remember that Napoleon led France in the 1800's? How can she sit there, writing about this essay. What was the question again? I belong in resource. I can't even remember the question to this stupid essay that I'm supposed to write. I belong in resource because I don't study, because I don't know anything about this, and because I can't remember anything. Nothing makes sense. I have to write this essay. I can't just sit here and stare at this piece of paper. That's not going to get me anywhere. This stupid essay has to get written. I can't write this essay. I can't do it. I can't sit here and write an essay for fifty minutes. It's not nearly enough time. Not nearly enough time to write an essay. This is why I'm in resource. I never give myself enough time to finish my essay. Not nearly enough time to write an essay. Forty minutes? That's what I have left? I have to write this stupid essay. I can do it. I have enough time. France? Napoleon? What else? Something about Egypt. And Russia. Something happened in Russia during the French Revolution. The French Revolution! That's supposed to be in this essay. I can do this. I can write this essay. But I can't in only forty minutes. That's not enough time. Not nearly enough time I barely have time to think in forty minutes! This is why I'm in resource. It takes me too long to think. I belong in resource because I don't study, because I don't know anything about this, because I can't remember anything, because I never give myself time to finish my essay, and because it takes me too long to think. Resource is right for me. But maybe I can get out. If only I could finish my essay. Finish, start. Same thing. I can do this, I can finish my essay. I just need to get started. I have thirty minutes? Thirty minutes to finish my essay? I can't do this. I can't finish my essay in thirty minutes. I can't start my essay in thirty minutes. No way. Not possible. Nothing is possible for me. This is why I'm in resource. Nothing is possible for me. I belong in resource because I don't study, because I don't know anything about this, because I can't remember anything, because I never give myself time to finish my essay, because it takes me too long to think, and because nothing it possible for me. No way can I do this. I have to do this. I have to start and finish my essay in thirty minutes. Have to. Have to. I can do this. I have twenty minutes? How am I supposed to finish my essay in twenty minutes? How am I supposed to start my essay in twenty minutes. I can't do this. I can't sit here and talk about Napoleon in France in the 1800's when he invaded Egypt to gain control of the canal that controlled most of England's trade, and he invaded Russia for more European land. I can't mention how he united the Germanic states to form what is now Germany. None of this is important to me. This is why I'm in resource. Because none of this is important. I belong in resource because I don't study, because I don't know anything about this, because I can't remember anything, because I never give myself time to finish my essay, because it takes me too long to think, because nothing is possible, and because none of this is important to me. I don't care how amazing Napoleon was. But I have to write my essay. Writing my essay will get me out of resource. I have to start my essay. I have ten minutes? Ten minutes is nothing! The girl next to me is on her fifth page of writing? How can she possibly write so much about how the French economy was failing and the system of Monarchy never really worked for the people of France, past, present, or future. I don't know what I'm supposed to talk about with the civil war between the French and the three estates, and how each estate recieved only one vote, and the first estate had most of the land, didn't pay taxes and always voted in favor of themselves because they were the wealthiest. I don't know how to mention that the second estate always voted with the first estate because they wanted to remain where they were, not paying taxes and having a good amount of land. I don't know how it's relevent that the third estate payed all the taxes even though they were the poorest estate and had all the peasants. I don't know. This is why I'm in resource. I don't know anything about anything about anything. I belong in resource because I don't study, because I don't know anything about this, because I can't remember anything, because I never give myself time to finish my essay, because it takes me too long to think, because nothing is posisble, because none of this is important and because I don't know anything about anything about anything. I have no more time? Zero minutes? But... I didn't write my essay. This is why I belong in resource.